I can do all this through him who gives me strength.Philippians 4:13

Sunday, 27 July 2014

[Little thought] Explanation



Ehhh, today is not a perfect day for me and my dad. So sucks of everything. I have been in a grumpy mood since yesterday. I threw away all the lovely strawberry cupcakes that I supposed to give to my aunt as I think the cupcakes were awful. Texture was so sticky that made me feel so disgusting but the texture was just supposed to be like that.

I woke up in the morning and realized that wtf my mum dumped the water tumbler into my bag and so the eggs that were in the bag were cracked. And this was the fucking thing that made me so grumpy throughout the day.

okay, then story begins here. I actually don't mind people cooking for me as I think this is relatively blissful as there is someone making foods for you. But, the thing is that I am the kind of person who don't eat late, especially after 7pm. To me, eating late making me feel so bad. However, after came back from Glasgow, my timetable has been changed due to the 'special case' that people in Malaysia don't eat dinner until 8pm. (Where do you get this sucks information from, I do find Malaysian eat dinner at 6pm). I have turned myself into a 'healthy' lifestyle since I get to Scotland as I think studying somehow harm my body a lot (e.g. stay up late, unbalance diet...). The other issue is that I am very strict on my body figure. I want to be fit in a healthy way. I hate eating late and there is just the most vital issue. I am not coming back to change my habit because of your st***d thinking. What I encourage you all to do will not harm your body too. Eating earlier is good to your body and giving you a better sleep at night. But seems like both of you don't get it.

From your point of view, you must be thinking that I am way too stubborn to have my habit change and so that can be compatible to everyone. But, I have to argue that this is not stubborn but my own rules. You have your own rules in your life too, don't you? Maybe mine is way too strong that making you think that I am so stubborn. I am sorry with that and I don't really feel like changing this. I have changed a lot since the day I got back to Malaysia in order to match your lifestyle. I still hate eating late and still, eating late making me feel so bad (I hate sleeping in full).

Well, you may not be able to see this until someday I die..? or gone or probably lost in somewhere around the world. Just to conclude. I really don't like to be forced to make others people happy. Other may change their habit or lifestyle in order to get into each other quicker, however, I am not that kind of person. I may change one day to make myself more compatible to this society but I will still insist living in my own way. Doesn't this mean respect? I am respecting all of you, giving you my smiley face everyday. But have you all ever thought that I am a human being also, not only you and you have negative feeling.

Okay, words can never explain and deliver the message that I would wish to. Just stop here to prevent another misunderstanding. Haizz, life is such a grenade. Sucks.

Tuesday, 8 July 2014

[Life] Scot's wedding at church

Thank you so much for the concerns and encouragement on Instagram and Whatsapp from friends! I really appreciate and you all are too kind. To be honest, it really blows me away and I knew that I am lying if I told you guys that I don't care about what they had said. However, I have to move on. It seems torturing if I am staying at the same place and keep on thinking about it. I am sure that I will still keep this in my mind until the day I am up in the heaven - don't judge, this is my character XDD

Okay, let us not talk about it again. I am leaving to KL with fat later and before that, I think I should finish writing about what I have done last month.

I came back from Glasgow on the 19th of May and my parents went to Tibet for their honeymoon two days after I am home. Jet lag was the worst among all my experience because I usually spend 3 days to adjust my time but I used up a week to totally recover from jet lag. Does this mean that I am already old? By the age of only 22?

Two days before I left to Malaysia, I went to attend a traditional (maybe?) Scottish wedding at my church with Ian, Morin and Each. It was an extraordinary wedding ceremony to both me and Each as we never attended a Scot wedding in the past 2 years. Their wedding was considered very simple if compare to us. The wedding dress worn by the bridegroom was simple but elegant and the bride, of course, the kilt with their traditional costume. The guests were dressed up formerly and you could find women with pretty hat and fascinator all over the hall. We realized that both mums were dressed nicer than the bridegroom ==

Just married ♡♡



Both me and Each went to have a farewell lunch at La Riviera Ristorante which located on Dumbarton road with Ian and Morin. Thanks for their treat :) I am glad to meet them in Glasgow as they treat me like their own children. I was also invited to have a Christmas lunch with them that made me feel extremely warm during the Christmas night.

I was too shy to take photos of the food that provided by Morin. But, you guys can no need to have high expectation on the foods as those foods were mostly bought from supermarket and just warmed it up before serving. I was so afraid to be served with formal lunch because I won't be able to finish everything and may be wasted in the end. Luckily that they were serving foods in the buffet model that you can choose to take whatever you want!

More pictures here :))


Bride with kilt!