Ehhh, today is not a perfect day for me and my dad. So sucks of everything. I have been in a grumpy mood since yesterday. I threw away all the lovely strawberry cupcakes that I supposed to give to my aunt as I think the cupcakes were awful. Texture was so sticky that made me feel so disgusting but the texture was just supposed to be like that.
I woke up in the morning and realized that wtf my mum dumped the water tumbler into my bag and so the eggs that were in the bag were cracked. And this was the fucking thing that made me so grumpy throughout the day.
okay, then story begins here. I actually don't mind people cooking for me as I think this is relatively blissful as there is someone making foods for you. But, the thing is that I am the kind of person who don't eat late, especially after 7pm. To me, eating late making me feel so bad. However, after came back from Glasgow, my timetable has been changed due to the 'special case' that people in Malaysia don't eat dinner until 8pm. (Where do you get this sucks information from, I do find Malaysian eat dinner at 6pm). I have turned myself into a 'healthy' lifestyle since I get to Scotland as I think studying somehow harm my body a lot (e.g. stay up late, unbalance diet...). The other issue is that I am very strict on my body figure. I want to be fit in a healthy way. I hate eating late and there is just the most vital issue. I am not coming back to change my habit because of your st***d thinking. What I encourage you all to do will not harm your body too. Eating earlier is good to your body and giving you a better sleep at night. But seems like both of you don't get it.
From your point of view, you must be thinking that I am way too stubborn to have my habit change and so that can be compatible to everyone. But, I have to argue that this is not stubborn but my own rules. You have your own rules in your life too, don't you? Maybe mine is way too strong that making you think that I am so stubborn. I am sorry with that and I don't really feel like changing this. I have changed a lot since the day I got back to Malaysia in order to match your lifestyle. I still hate eating late and still, eating late making me feel so bad (I hate sleeping in full).
Well, you may not be able to see this until someday I die..? or gone or probably lost in somewhere around the world. Just to conclude. I really don't like to be forced to make others people happy. Other may change their habit or lifestyle in order to get into each other quicker, however, I am not that kind of person. I may change one day to make myself more compatible to this society but I will still insist living in my own way. Doesn't this mean respect? I am respecting all of you, giving you my smiley face everyday. But have you all ever thought that I am a human being also, not only you and you have negative feeling.
Okay, words can never explain and deliver the message that I would wish to. Just stop here to prevent another misunderstanding. Haizz, life is such a grenade. Sucks.
