[Little thought] The difference between a happy and unhappy life

Saw this post accidentally and I found this quite worth a read.

7 Habits of Chronically Unhappy People

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tamara-star/7-habit-of-chronically-unhappy-people_b_6174000.html?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000063

I realized that I got most of the points especially number 4 (You compare yourself to others and harbor jealousy). I wondered if I should also stop one year for studying as the others, and find a quiet and peaceful place that can reduce my anxiety. My conditions has become better since last month after a long talk with my friends and pastor and a sudden realize of the anxiety. I still wonder where my anxiety comes from. But God's word help me to come through those barriers. I can still remember the minister told us that, 'if you feel afraid, read Psalms 91, which is the bible reading from the Sunday congregation. 

I tried it immediately after I got home. I read it out loud and started to cry. I felt so release after the reading. I felt extremely calm after I finished the words. Yes, God is working on me. Hallelujah! Praised to be God. I had been sleeping so soundly after that day. I didn't wake up at 6 am in the morning for the whole week. (Well, it came back these days as I realized I woke up at 6.45 a.m automatically no matter how late I slept) 

So, the bible is with me everyday, every night. I think prayer works. I pray to have a better sleep and I receive the response from God. I asked for a better appetite and I also got the response too. 

I didn't know if people who read this would believe me. However, it did happen on me and I hope it will happen on you too. So, when you are afraid of something, open your bible and read Psalms 91; when you feel stress, just dump your work aside, do something that you like, pray and ask for peace. As Proverbs 16:3 said, 'Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.' 

That is all for today :)) Feeling so loved tonight. 

Goodnight. 

 

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[Little thought]

I don't know what to key in for the title. I don't have any idea yet so I will keep it blank until I sort it out.

Winter is approaching and sunset has become earlier each day. I hate it. Not because I hate winter, it is just because I miss the sunlight, which can enlighten me. Stepping into the 20s isn't that easy. I appreciate that I born to have such a healthy body and mind. I appreciate that in my 20s, my parents are still around and are able to travel with me, cook for me, take care of me, scold me, hug me, talk to me, nagging at me. I appreciate that in my 20s, I can have the opportunity to pursue my study overseas and also the chance to learn how to be independent. I appreciate that in my 20s, my friends are still accompanying me, encourage me, playing with me, talk to me. I also appreciate that, in my 20s, I realize that people who cares about me, who worries about me are increasing gradually. In my 20s. I learnt that it is good to be alone and also not to be alone. And also, in my 20s, I learnt that having a healthy mind and body is such an important thing ever.

From all that I mentioned above, I try my best to change my lifestyle in order to build a stronger body. I started to take the things that I don't like, for example, meat. I am still a picky person. I eat beef more than others. I like medium rare beef, where it can't be too hard to chew. I also started to eat carbs. Not everyday, but at least I am taking it. It tastes so good when I make it as the famous Korean cuisine, bibimbap. I am still a fish lover. Yes, I can finish one whole fish by my own. Almost of kinds of fish I would take but salmon is my first choice and followed by cod fish. Sea bream and sea bass are also my favourite too. I never knew their names until I came to Glasgow. However, it is still hard for me to match the name and fish while the name is not indicated. Salmon would be a different topic, since it's meat colour can already tell the difference between others. Maybe cod fish too? Or maybe rainbow trout?

Lacking Vitamin B12, folic acid has caused me underweight. I lost my appetite, I hate eating, I found bruises on my legs, I was feeling fatigue. I am trying to gain back a little bit now, but it takes time because I seldom snacks and I don't like sweet stuffs apart from kitkat. But I can't take so many KitKat in a day though. I may end up hating them XDD I am wondering I am still having a bad mind that keep telling me you are such a fatty bom bom. Anyway, I am trying hard to switch my mind into a healthy one. So, I started to consume more. I used to force myself eating at the same time everyday, yes I think this is good, so I keep this habit going on but will eat whenever I feel hungry. I consume more spinach and foods that have high vitamin D and folic acid and I realize that the my legs no longer have bruises. Amen, praise to be God. As I hands get cold easily, my friend recommend to me to drink goji berries with dates every day. Yes, it helps. It really does because I found that my hand started to get cold since I have stopped drinking for a week. WTF. And I also make myself to the bed around 10.30pm to 11pm so that I will fall asleep very soon. You know right, it is a must to scroll your phone for about half an hour before sleeping. I am still doing in this way and now my body alarm has automatically set at 7am where I will wake up by myself without any alarm. To be more accurate, it is 6.59 in the morning. Having breakfast in the morning is such a blissful moment throughout the day! I also exercise once I have time or whenever I like since I got my new Nike Air Pegasus lately, I shouldn't waste it right :)

What I am hoping now is that, I hope someone can cook for me everyday and I no need to think about what to eat or what to cook. Sometimes eating foods that prepared by others is way too easier and happy rather than preparing by yourself. You eat what they cook, that is all. From here, I started to miss the pan fried fish with lots of tomato that my grandpa always cook for me when I am home. One last thing I am still considering is whether I should buy supplement drink because I hate milk. It is now still a question mark for me.

Alright, I used to not care about my body that God gave me. But as soon as I will step into my 30s, I really think that a healthy body is your wealth for your whole life. I once almost ruined it and luckily that people around me has nudged me so I am awake. I shouldn't be that. I know life is good when there is food. I should treasure the opportunity to eat since that I am able to, right? Amen. I will keep it up to build a stronger body and mind while having my assignments accompany :)) Praise to be God and I hope everyone is staying healthy and happy as you always do.

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[Little thought] First crush

So, are you a believer of first crush lover? Sorry to be disappointing, I am not. I can't believe when people tell me that they fall in love with someone they just met once. What the hell! Do you know about him or her? Do you really know about her character? The age? The name? Do you?

I am damn mad when my friend told me that she had a crush on a guy who she only met for 2 times. Well, just two times and you told me that you like him?! Wth. I really want to ask you why are you so worry about your relationship and can't wait for a longer time and see if you really like him. Do you understand what does it mean by like and love? She is just a 22 years old girl and seems so tempted to be in a relationship as soon as possible. She is the kind of person who will ever bring you a big surprise when she is home. This is one of the example.

People may think if I am overreacted or being too conservative when talking about this but I am not, to be honest. I won't agree this kind of relationship no matter who they are, my friends, sister or strangers. Why don't just let it slow down, see what happen next and then only you determine whether you are having a crush on him? Life is short but isn't that short, oh my dear! We just don't want to see you get hurt.

I don't know what is happening to my friends but there is also another story which one of my best girl friend is dating a guy who only know for 2 weeks. My godness, 2 weeks! How can it be!! I had so much to say but I just didn't know how to start. She asked me about my opinion, obviously I told her I wouldn't agree with it but I emphasized that that was my point of view, please do not get influence by me because this is all about herself. She then rejected him but accepted him after a few days past. The reason being is that she thinks this is the precious opportunity for her to date someone while studying in the university. So, this is her reason. She told me how jealous she was when she saw couples holding hands when walking on the street, watching movie together, dating and bla bla bla. Wth + whf.

I really can't get the point of it. So these are the reason you accept him. Oh well, I can't say anything since that is your decision. I have already given you my advice and that is it, my job is done.  I just hope both of you could get along well.

Okay, I am done with complaining. That means I have to continue my study. Haven't been putting effort on my study nowadays. So much regret, I should concentrate more on study. WTF.  

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[Life] Team working

It is Friday!! I am actually feeling so down even I sound excited at the beginning.  Soon after the classes started, my stress level shoot up directly and my forehead started to pop up some unwelcome pimples.

This year, I decided to focus more on project things so I am expecting many group meetings sooner or later. Besides that, my progress in dissertation is so slow which makes me freak out all the time. I am planning to finish it by February so that I can focus on the other essays that have to be submitted in March. Well, I hope I won't break my plan!

I went for SME group meeting yesterday and I could tell there was fire between me and one of the team members. We were fighting against 'centralization'. I understood what she wanted to say but I just felt that the term 'centralization' did not fit well. Well, the story is that we have to comment, analyse and evaluate the current and future strategy of Zara. So, I think an internal analysis for the company is essential but they seemed didn't care much. Okay, I then strongly suggested that we had to do it and they agreed with it after all. That was happened in the first meeting. One of the girl in the team is from Bulgaria, I find that her character is very strong. She wants everyone to follow what she said and she is sort of the 'demand' kind of people. I am glad that our team have one of this person so that the team won't be so passive all the time. However, the dark side of this is that the people is too demanding and she kind of loves something complicated. I don't understand why she wanted to do regression analysis in a 5 slides power point presentation. She has made the whole thing so complicated. I don't mind if she really wanted to do it, but then again, why made thing so complicated since you can make it in a more simple way? 

Anyway, I can't say that is all about her problem. Me, myself also, since I am always been categorize in the stubborn side. I should be more opened and one thing I find very important is that I need to improve my English and also the knowledge, otherwise, I could have lost the argument next time (the argument was a draw). I need more evidence and knowledge to support my view so that I can win over her next time! 

The other collusion I draw from this experience is that don't be so insist in a particular thing. Spaces should be made among the team members. Since that team-working is so important these days, I believe this would be the best opportunity for me to learn as how to be a team member. 

The other thing I gonna tell is that I dreamed about I was almost being eaten by a salmon. WTH. I know it sounds so funny but I think I must have eaten too much salmon so it is now trying to take revenge on me. I remember I even shouted it out and woke up. But I fell asleep again after 30 seconds. Well, sweet dream huh ... 

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[Life] Officially 22

Oh man, I am 22 now. So annoying when my parents tell others that I am 22. It is way too sensitive for me ... maybe girls who around this age also have the same kind of thought as me - just don't feel like telling others how old you are.

Just a short update about how I celebrated my birthday :)

Before going back to Glasgow, I just decided to have a small celebration with my sister and Marilyn since our birthday are so closed. I am on the 22nd, my sis is one 21st and Marilyn is on the 18th. We are all September babies <3 And of course, this was also one of my excuses to celebrate birthday since no one has celebrated with me for 3 years and I wished I could have a birthday cake on my birthday as others...

What makes it pity is that I bought the cake by myself. Okay... looks like I am forcing everyone to celebrate with me ...

And then on my exact birthday, I celebrated it with the friends in Glasgow. They are my pillar when I am in Glasgow. Thank you!

We went to Ox and Finch to have dinner. This is a new opened restaurant in Glasgow and it is a tapas bar. This is why the price that shown on the menu is cheap. The plate are served in the size of appetizer. For me, I would considered the size is exactly suitable for me. But if you have a bigger appetite, you may order more. 

The interior of the restaurant is modern and nice. Love the windows that brighten up the whole restaurant. There is also an open kitchen but luckily there is no heavy smell coming out from the kitchen that will make you and your clothes stink. 

A logo of an ox is printed on the menu board.

Baby Gio bought a cake from Sainsbury's hahahaha that is a lemon cake. But sadly, I am loyalty only to the lemon cake in Marks and Spencer XDD

Just the selfies with Baby Gio. Thanks for celebrating my birthday and thank you for the present tooooo. Take care and my birthday wish is I must graduate with a second upper and to have a healthier body! Thanks God for everyday! Happy birthday and I will rejoice in the Lord.

With love,
Fia

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[Travelling] Day trip to Stirling

Hi ya, I have been back to Glasgow finally :)) Since I was busing moving back to my flat + unpacking + tidying, I was unable to update my blog! 

What I find interesting is that all my new flatmates are guys. GUYS. Seriously?! I purposely asked for a mixed flat during my 1st year but then all my flatmates were girls and eventually after 3 years, my dream has come true XDD Hope we can get along well ;)) 

Back to the topic, to be honest, this trip wasn't in my plan. I did plan to go somewhere by myself before the class but then I realized I have to do a lot of planning when I am in Malaysia. So I dropped my plan and just go somewhere near instead. 

So, during my birthday, I went to a day trip alone. This was really spontaneous, I only decided while having my breakfast! Anyway, this is one of my birthday wishes too --- travelling alone! The return ticket from Partick to Stirling is just £10, cheaper than what I saw on thetrainline.com. 

After a 45 minutes train, I then arrived in the city centre of Stirling. It takes about 5 minutes walk from the station to city centre. Since I did not do any research before heading here, I just randomly walked along the street.

The flowers along the street. Simply pretty and lovely to see this during autumn.

Some street views on the way to Stirling castle. Not that I wanted to say, the road is damn steep than I expected and the castle is really on top of the mountain! 

This has now become the SYHA (youth hostel). I think the location is really great since it is located between city centre and some tourist attractions. You will then see the jail and Argyll lodge if you continue to walk upward, city centre is just about 5 to 10 minutes walk. 

This is the church of Holy Rude. Admission is free and this is just what I love about Scotland XDD Almost all the attractions are free to enter! 

Cowane's hospital is just right opposite the church. 

The hospital is not a hospital now anymore. There is cafe out there for people to rest and have drinks, inside of the hospital somehow looks like a church too. 

The interior of the Church of Holy Rude. This church is the only surviving church in Scotland that has witnessed a coronation. 

The staffs are extremely friendly. All the tourists will be given an introduction about the church according to where you are from. So everyone can understand about more on this church in your own languages. 

I was not allowed to enter this because I didn't buy the ticket. Besides that, this is only opened from 2pm and it seems like they have limited visiting time. But if you have the ticket of entering castle, you are eligible to get in too.

Oh my goodness. finally. It was so great to see the sign!!

The sun was exteremely strong in noon. People might think I wasa noob since I was wearing a coat, yes a coat.

My back was burning, this wasn't lying. I would get tan immediately if I took out my coat, so NO NO NO. hahahaha!

My face is getting rounder and rounder, wtf. I hate it! Making me look so fat! 

Well, this is it. A short, simple, random and spontaneous day trip to Stirling on my birthday! Happy 22nd <3 

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